Excerpt
Adults hide their feelings in strong liquor. They drink to forget, to confess; even in a haze, they can voice what lies buried deep. But a fourteen-year-old boy has no such refuge. All he can hold is a warm cup of latte, and with it, a careful fantasy, if only he could get the girl he likes a little drunk, maybe she would let down her guard, see the quiet longing in his eyes.
Translator: Lara Lee
Written in Guangzhou, April 28, 2026, Published by All Dimensions Press™ on May 2, 2026.
On a weekend evening, I drove alone, slowly circling Ersha Island. The car window was half open, letting the dusk breeze drift in, while the stereo gently played Devotion of Love by Sam Lee:
“I want to get you drunk with a cup of latte, so you might love me a little more.”
In that instant, the mellow melody spread into the twilight, brushing softly against the heart. The song was released in 2002; by the time I first heard it, I was already past forty. Yet that single line felt like a gentle key, unlocking long-sealed memories of youth, those awkward, tender years we all once had.
This song, Devotion of Love, is Sam Lee’s signature hit. For many, it is the quintessential “backup lover” anthem of youth, the most piercing piece in what people call his “backup trilogy.” Few know that its songwriter, Tsai Po-nan, was just a minor when he wrote the now-famous “latte” line, too young even to drink.
Adults hide their feelings in strong liquor. They drink to forget, to confess; even in a haze, they can voice what lies buried deep. But a fourteen-year-old boy has no such refuge. All he can hold is a warm cup of latte, and with it, a careful fantasy, if only he could get the girl he likes a little drunk, maybe she would let down her guard, see the quiet longing in his eyes. Maybe she would look at him just a bit more, instead of treating him like someone insignificant.
A cup of latte lacks the burn of alcohol, yet it holds the most sincere, and most powerless, kind of young love. No ornate language, no forced sentimentality. Just one simple wish that captures the clumsy earnestness of countless boys in their youth.
As I listened to more love songs over the years, I began to notice a pattern: widely loved male ballads tend to sing of youthful love that could not be fulfilled, while most female ballads dwell on the disappointments and grievances of adulthood. Like Devotion of Love, they are never about just one person, they echo the emotional fate of an entire generation.
Boys and girls of the same age seem to live in entirely different worlds. Girls mature earlier. Though still youthful in appearance, they are already perceptive, aware of boundaries, instinctively resistant to boys who are naive, impulsive, and have nothing to offer. Boys, on the other hand, remain rough-edged, empty-pocketed, simple-minded, lacking both polish and romance. All they have is sincerity. They approach with care, only to end up bruised and battered.
So in teenage love, girls often look down on boys their age, seeing them as shallow and immature, unable to match their expectations for the future. And boys, awkward and devoted, give everything they have, yet still fail to hold on to the one they love.
That is why Devotion of Love became so popular, why so many male love songs revolve around the unattainable, the “white moonlight,” the “red cinnabar mole,” the lingering ache of what cannot be had. Because every boy can find, in those songs, his younger self, earnest, humble, and quietly heartbroken.
Time passes. We shed our innocence and step into youth, then middle age. And somewhere along the way, the balance quietly shifts.
That once naive, impoverished boy grows into himself, gaining career, experience, confidence. His heart hardens; he no longer humbles himself for love, no longer bends carefully to please.
And the girl who once stood radiant in her youth gradually sees those advantages fade. The pride of youth softens into a longing for stability, for being cherished, for lasting companionship. Yet the people around her are no longer those boys who once revolved around her.
As novelty fades, relationships grow worn by neglect and emotional distance. Female love songs, in turn, fill with sorrow, grievance, and quiet resentment, complaints of indifference, regret over love that has faded, the ache of sincerity unreturned. What may sound like melodrama is, in truth, the helplessness women often feel in love as adults.
In youth, men sing of love they cannot obtain. In adulthood, women sing of love they cannot keep. Song after song, melody after melody, none of it is an empty lament. It is a precise reflection of a lifelong misalignment between men and women of the same age: growing up together, yet blooming at different times, maturing differently, wanting different things.
Destined to be out of sync, they spend a lifetime missing each other, again and again, with quiet regret.
It is precisely because people have come to understand this innate misalignment that society has gradually formed a marriage rule that is both practical and, in its own way, reasonable: a man being about five years older than a woman is considered the most compatible age gap.
Those five years neatly bridge the psychological gap between men and women, make up for differences in life experience, and balance economic disparities. The man, more mature and steady, knows how to be accommodating and supportive, able to hold the woman’s vulnerability and expectations. The woman, in turn, does not have to shoulder burdens too early or force herself into premature maturity; within such a relationship, she can enjoy stability and a sense of being cherished. Strip away social bias, and this is, in many ways, a pairing shaped by natural selection, well-suited for a long life together.
But nothing in life comes without trade-offs. Beneath it all, biology has written another, harsher rule: across the world, women live on average five to six years longer than men. Combine this natural lifespan gap with the “ideal” five-year age difference, and a simple calculation leads to an inevitable conclusion: the husband will often leave this world about ten years before the wife.
We see it all the time: in residential neighborhoods, in parks where people gather to dance, white-haired elderly women everywhere, but few men of the same age. Behind this common sight lies that cold, unyielding law of nature. In an ordinary marriage, a couple spends a lifetime together; the man often passes away peacefully, with someone by his side, someone to mourn him. The woman, however, is left to endure the long twilight of life alone, living in an empty house, holding onto memories of shared years, of warmth, and of regret.
In a conventional family with children, there is still the cushioning presence of kinship in old age. Children and family ties can soften the loneliness of living alone, offer care during illness, and provide support in times of incapacity. But once one chooses a DINK life, this inherent gender imbalance is magnified, becoming an irreversible cost in the latter half of life.
In youth, being DINK looks like mutual freedom: no burdens of child-rearing, no daily trivialities of domestic life, just two people, free and unencumbered, living as they please. This ease and lightness are shared by both partners. But the hidden risks, the bitter fruits in old age, are never evenly distributed.
For men, the margin for error is high. With a naturally shorter lifespan, they often complete their lives earlier, having had a companion by their side, someone to care for them in sickness, someone to see them off at the end. Even without children, they can exit life with a certain dignity.
More importantly, men have a long and forgiving reproductive window. Even if they change their minds in midlife, whether in their forties, fifties, or beyond, they still retain the ability to have children. If they regret the DINK choice, they can leave, find a younger partner, start a family, and begin again. For them, the door of retreat is almost always open.
Women, however, face a very different reality. Their reproductive window is a hard boundary that cannot be crossed. Choosing DINK in one’s twenties means giving up the possibility of motherhood. In the blink of an eye, middle age arrives; after menopause, that possibility is gone forever. A decision made in youth becomes a lifelong outcome, with no room for reversal.
More cruel still is the absence of support in a frail old age. When the husband passes first, and there are no children, no close kin, no emotional anchors, there is no one left to rely on. While health remains, one may still manage alone, maintaining a semblance of dignity. But once illness strikes, mobility declines, and independence is lost, one is left entirely on one’s own. Caregivers offer only transactional care; nursing homes often feel impersonal and distant. There is no one to make decisions, no one to stay by one’s side, no one to offer genuine comfort. The ultimate freedom once desired in youth, in the end, can turn into boundless loneliness and quiet desolation.
Love songs sing of passion and heartbreak; real life hides the laws of nature. There are no perfectly equal choices in this world. Every seemingly easy shortcut carries a price, quietly marked from the very beginning. All we can do is see this misalignment clearly, understand the pattern, and at life’s crossroads, choose with a little more clarity, and a little more care.
About the Author
Eddy Lee traces his lineage to Yashan, site of the last battle of the Southern Song dynasty in 1279. A member of the Third Front generation—families relocated during China’s industrial campaign of the 1960s and 70s, he now lives in Guangzhou, China.
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Category: Non Fiction / Essay
Tags: Love / DINK / Equality
Great piece, thumbs up.
Back when people criticized “vulgar taste” and “decadent, unhealthy culture,” I never quite understood what those terms really meant. This whole “latte” thing, however, seems to offer a pretty good example :)
It’s a thoughtful, rational, and objective article. How did it become “vulgar and indecent” in your eyes? That’s rather amusing.
Everyone is entitled to their own opinion. Could you be more specific about what exactly you find vulgar or indecent, and why?
Among young people in Shanghai today, there are also practices that don’t quite follow the patterns described in the article: for instance, choosing not to marry or have children; older-woman/younger-man relationships (apparently defined not as just a slight age difference, but often ten years or more); or single individuals having a child through IVF. I can’t quite tell, are they being unusually clear-eyed about marriage and family, or simply fearless in their youth? With the rapid development of AI and robotics, perhaps one day robots will be able to accompany humans tirelessly into old age.
